The Animal Kingdom

“This is so unprofessional!” Rose exclaims for the third time that day, and it’s true.  We are unprofessional.  Someone in the office has brought in balloons  and a pump, and most people have stopped their work and are trying to make balloon animals.  There is a cracking “POP!!!” from behind me, and everyone jumps.   “Guys, seriously!” she moans.  Rose is not making balloon animals.  She is adjusting her glasses and leafing through Wednesday’s Europe reports, ...

The Girl Made of Glass II

The people at work who have known him for years can sense a change.  One day, after we’ve been seeing each other for a month, his boss closes the door behind her and turns to him.   “What’s going on between you and Murph?” she demands. “Nothing,” is the straight-faced reply. “Liar!’   It’s an accusation laced with glee, and he can’t help but laugh.  And with that, our cover is blown. The head of the department is the next to know.  She has known him for years--hired ...

The Girl Made of Glass

I am sitting at my desk, waiting on a file to export.  Headphones in (Bill Ricchini crooning about sunny days and saving graces), a room-temperature, half-drank can of cherry cola on my right, a shopping bag resting on my left.  Damn, I shouldn’t have bought that dress.  I’ll have to wear it at least once a week for the next month so it doesn’t feel like a total waste.  It will look good with that sheer, crème colored top with the sweet peter pan collar.  Or maybe I could ...

I'm going to be re-formatting the way I write these blogs, because I realized this week that my old style just isn't working for me anymore.  My posts are going to look like journal entries from here on out, because that's pretty much how I've been treating my writing as of late.  Without the luxury of professional therapy, I've taken to just writing in random slices and chunks about my life.  I'll probably still have random picture posts and silly stuff, but I'm really going to be ...

Cheap and Cheerful

I spent an odd Christmas this year.  It was the first Christmas I'd spent without both Dean and my family, and both my roommate and my only other close friend are still out of town visiting their families.  As it turned out, I ended up at a nearby bar with a co-worker on Christmas Eve.  It was 7 PM and the place was pretty sad--dark, a few huddled figures at the bar, and dozens of empty tables.  We each had one drink before I stupidly mentioned the all-you-can-drink beer and ...

Buried

The last post I had was pretty depressing, but as I was in a "very dark place" at the time, it was fitting. I'm going to be getting a divorce in the upcoming months, and even saying those words still sound insane to me.  But it's happening and I am just trying to move forward with it. I had to take a few days off work once I discovered the truth.  My sister immediately flew out and after she left, my mom took her place for two weeks.  Letters and gifts poured in from relatives ...

The life I've known is over.  I try to pick up the pieces only to figure out I don't know where anything belongs anymore.  Each day feels like a nightmare, but I have never loved my family or friends more.  I try to rediscover what I was like ten years ago, but it's like being curious while looking into a stranger's life.  Is that what I did?  Is that what I loved?  Is that what made me happy? Happiness is underrated and I never realized that until now.  Aristotle ...

Voyager

A photo post.  A lot happened in the last week but it would be exhausting to type it all out.  I kept starting this entry and then deleting it out of frustration. Went here for Dean's "welcome to LA" first official meal as an LA resident...at 11:30 PM.  We left at 2:30 am right as they were closing.  It was pricier than I am used to, but the quality of meat was top ...

Red

Pardon my absence, but I did not have internet for two weeks.  I was only supposed to go a few days without it, but there was a mishap with the UPS delivery, and then when I did get the necessary junk, it didn't even work so I had to wait for an AT&T dude to come fix it today.  Le sigh.   The last few weeks have been a blur of late nights with my former college roommate, Lizzy (fried chicken and donuts while watching Sherlock Holmes 2; drinks at Gaam; bumming around Ikea trying ...

Coughing Colors

I'm not the kind of person who believes in bad luck, but today was just...off. It should have been an easy day. I woke up early and called Verizon concerning a $200 overage charge on my joint cell phone bill with my husband, and they--very nicely and professionally--agreed to strike $100 off since it was so out of character for us.  This put me in a great mood, so I happily strolled ...